Sigh

Sigh. Heavily.
Blame shift
Create a guilt trip to divert
Deny. Deny. Deny.
Lie. Lie. Lie.
Retreat.
Do not allow her to rely on you.
Check in to see if the fire is burnt out.
If not, roast some marshmallows on the flame.
Squish them and mold them.
If it gets too hot again…
Sigh. Heavily.
The heat feels so good.
When she starts to sweat.
But she looks pained, fatigued…
Tell her if she can’t take the heat
She should get out
Better yet, do not tell her this:
Tell her something beautiful
to lull her into a dream
Let her wake to find you one day
perfectly nestled with someone
who likes to sweat.
Tell her it’s not her fault.
She can’t help the way she is.
Deny that you have broken any trust
Deny that this is her bathtub too.
Deny that she has a reason to feel abandoned.
Lie that this woman feels right
The heat she emits is the fuel you
Burn with.
Lie that she is the only one who
Can do this for you.
Or
Lie that she meant nothing to you

This is not the wrong
Way.

This is not the right
Way.

This is the way she knows
How to burn out
And become ash
so she can rise again and fly out of this fire
and light another spark
elsewhere